Stress

I'm so overwhelmed right now. This is just too much for me to handle. Most of the problem is the customers paying. It's due upon completion and they seem to ignore that and think it's a 30 day. It's not. When you get your car fixed you have to pay immediately. Same with this business. We try out best to get our work done at a timely fashion but we will never rush through or cut corners to make a quick buck. We stand behind our work and are very honorable. I just wish customers would have the same standards as us. At this point I honestly don't know what to do. I have about $40k dollars sitting out there. My mailman , which I reported, has not been bringing our mail. We haven't had mail in 4 days. I could see maybe 1 day a week no mail but not 4 in a row when I'm expecting checks. I literally have no money and it's not mine

or my employees fault. Can you imagine how frustrating that is? I called my boyfriends lawyer and told him he has to do something. That we are dying at work and if the doors close you might as well send my boyfriend up state because he just lost his company that he built from his blood, sweat and tears is now gone and he will probably go into a deep depression and relapse. I told him I don't even care when he comes home I just need him on work release or something. I mean hell. I don't want to do this anymore. This is not fair. I can't keep on waiting for the customers to be honorable and pay. It's annoying. It's a struggle for the past couple weeks to even get out of bed and come here. I do it because that's what God would want me to do but what's the freaking point now? I'm done. Completely and totally done. I need a miracle this week or I'm 100% seriously considering leaving . I don't have peace and that's so important to maintain a healthy mind, body and soul.

UPDATE: I guess complaining to the post office about no mail delivering for days worked. I received a a crap load of mail today and $18k in checks. Still stressed but won't go home crying tonight.