How did I let my life become this? I thought I had everything under control. For the most part I know my life isn't bad and I know people...

It's been a week. I was out of commission for 5 days with a sinus and head cold infection. During this time ( I'm still not 100% yet )...

Yes I am still excited about the new probation officer switch for my boyfriend but what I didn't see coming was he has 1 free weekend to...

What can I say about this snowy Wednesday in Pittsburgh? Best day in a long time. All the crying, anxiety attacks, praying, standing firm...

This blog is going to be different.. a little. I'm having a hard time forgetting what my boyfriend said to me last week. I forgive him...

How does one even explain this weekend when the misery started Thursday after work. We were on our way to Giant Eagle and out of know...

Well we all know the kind of weekend I had. What shocked me is for some reason I had several mini panic attacks on Saturday. I know what...

I was going to blog today about how good things have been going the past almost 2 weeks until now. I went to work and I have a doggie...

Valentine's Day weekend. It was wonderful. He was himself. The man I knew he could be. He wasn't high even though he did have a few beers...

This weekend wasn't terrible. Yes he was high. It was just an annoying high not the out of control high. Really sad that it appears that...

Today I'm sitting at work by myself. I'm the only one in today because of the weather. He started drinking at 9:30am. Beer & wine. That...

I usually don't blog on Sundays but I figured why not share my thought s as I'm actually going through it. He's been high since last...

Where do I even start? I can't wait until I can officially close this chapter of life and start a new book. I had a few nice days. He...

Sitting at work minding my own business just enjoying the peace. I realize I haven't heard about my lower back x-rays. I called the...

I had a really nice few days with him. He slept mostly but I'll take the peace. He was sober and that's a big deal. I just want to...

Today is a special day to me. It's my brother's birthday. He would of been 52 today. He passed away 16 years ago. He also struggled...

I wanted to start this blog different. I know I blog a lot about the hurt of being in a relationship with an active addict. They are...

Where do I even start on how my weekend went. I guess I should be happy he was sober for our date. That sounds so pathetic. About a half...

Absolutely incredible that someone can use a person and the person they used forgives them and still hopes they let the good out. When...